On being a Boi
Boi recognizes my masculine energy. It’s not about gender identity, orientations and or dominant or submissive energy. More often than not, the world usually recognizes my masculine energy much more than my female energy and that started long before I started presenting as a boi to the world. It is that balance of female and male when merged, that makes me whole-hearted and able to relate to others with a whole heart. When I finally started presenting and dressing as a boi, I finally really felt like the flawed, beautiful person I was always destined to become.
I don’t hate being female and I love my female parts and my female energy. Since I can remember, I always loved the way boys dressed, acted, the tattoos and more importantly, the way women looked at them, thought about them, felt about them, treated them and DESIRED them. I wanted all of that from women my entire life. I am not into “littles” but sometimes I feel like a 12 yr old boy when around really strong women that know the power they possess. Having more masculine energy than female doesn’t mean exhibiting typical male cultural social interactions but to me, means appreciating those masculine traits and social interactions and the beautiful femmes that appreciate those hard to define but those sometimes subtle intangible differences between female/male. Those things are the drivers of passion and desire.
Why boi and not boy, because I do not want to loose my feminine side but want to merge all of this masculine and feminine energy together. My desire is to be someone that is stronger, more sensitive, more sensual, more understanding, more loving with more compassion and humility. Those are the gifts I can offer someone who knows how to appreciate and take those gifts with grace and return them as passion and desire.