After I just cut my hair during my senior year of high school, one of my mother's best friends told me, "I miss the long hair. You make a cute boy but you make a beautiful woman." She wasn't the only one who agreed. All my life whenever I was femme and wore a dress, heels, and make up, people would tell me how beautiful I was. But whenever I wore something more masculine they looked the other way. Still, I love "dressing up like a boy" with a button up shirt I manage to find in my what seems to be impossible to find male small size at H&M, a tie, and my cheap fedora I bought on the streets of NYC. I feel handsome even though I may never be called that. To be masculine is to carry a certain poise and grace. It is also truthfully daring as you express your gender identity in a society that may not understand. And that's why I love seeing masculine womyn and being one.