Masculinity sits within a gender role that I whole heartedly embrace, along with my gender of being female; I am all of these things and so much more. It seems through my life I have grown up and not been 'clear' enough about my identity to people around me, I have never sat firmly in one gender role and this confuses people, confusion can breed fear and sometimes anger.
If I had a pound for every time someone stares at me or has told me I am in the wrong bathroom I would be very rich, when I was younger it used to upset me I would take my jacket off and stick my boobs out and have a ridiculous gay man mince just to make sure there was no confusion that I was indeed in the right bathroom.
Nowadays I don’t care about it, I smile and say really? Are you sure? And walk away amused, leaving the person looking so confused. That is enough for me; it’s not my job to be 'clear' for other people. I know who I am, my friends and family know who I am, I am a gentle, loving, proud highly polished boi who traverses gender roles and makes no apologies for not being 'clear'.