Masculinity is beautiful and complicated. I was EXTREMELY feminine before I came out as queer, after which I wholly rejected any femininity and tried to be as masculine as possible. As hard as I tried, I heard repeatedly that I had a feminine "edge" or quality that I would never be able to escape. Being in feminine clothes felt like being in drag, yet trying to be hyper-masculine didn't feel any more comfortable. I felt that the androgynous/masculine of center folks I found to be gorgeous would never be me. I have slowly found myself over the years, and love the masculinity that drives my style and being.